Making : This bread for the first time in a long time, because fall days need simple bread.
Cooking : This for dinner on a regular basis, because it is easy! Cheap (especially if you use thighs, which I always do because dark meat forever and ever amen)! One pan! Paleo! Tasty!
Drinking : All the coffee, and really wanting one of those salted caramel mochas because they are my absolute favorite, but I’m trying to stay easy on the sugar, even after we finished last month’s whole30.
Reading: Anne’s House of Dreams – finishing off the series and it is full of such gems. Also, The Little Blue Truck about a thousand times a day because it’s Henry’s favorite.
Wanting: To get an amazing job next year after I finally finish (!) graduate school and graduate (!!) but also to just stay home, because gosh if Henry isn’t just more and more fun every day and I hate missing it.
Looking: For a new couch that is aesthetically pleasing, comfortable, and small enough for Capitol Hill sized spaces that have recently been rendered more crowded by my amazing, though large, farmhouse style table.
Playing: Lots of games of “throw the ball and let Henry chase it and then collapse laughing so hard he can barely through it back.”
Watching: This is Us, because I love to cry; Poldark, because half the characters infuriate me, but I love the other half (AUNT AGATHA!) so much I keep on going; Scrubs, because it is maybe the best show ever to watch in little spurts.
Wasting: Wipes, as Henry loves to help wipe down any and all surfaces.
Wishing: That we lived closer to our parents, because being in Kentucky for a couple days last week made me want to move him asap so Henry could have more grandparent and farm time.
Enjoying: Henry’s current obsession with sitting down on chairs/boxes/steps/totally unsittable surfaces that are at the right level. He slowly backs up and then settles his little booty in a way that just kills me dead every time.
Waiting: For endless library books that I have requested… I’m on the last chapter of my dissertation and just can’t stop requesting books.
Liking: Images of Sweden, because some of my favorite people moved there and I want to visit.
Wondering: How I can get Hamilton tickets when it comes to DC next year. I knew they would be pricey… but I just looked, and pricey doesn’t even begin to cover it. Trying to find a way to be in the room where it happens without losing all my dollars.
Loving: How much Henry loved being at my parent’s house, how much he loved space to run and explore.
Hoping: That someday we can have some semblance of a yard. Any yard, of any size.
Marveling: At how many really awesome places have popped up in Lexington since I lived there, like Kentucky Native Café – paradise for foodies with toddlers.
Needing: To really deep clean my baseboards. Toddler who likes to hurl food + small city space equals baseboards in desperate need of some TLC.
Wearing: This shirt, partially because it is the softest t-shirt ever, but mostly because I just love my home state.
Noticing: The way Henry seems to understand things now, like instructions and explanations, even if he can’t respond.
Knowing: That there is so much in me, in things I say and do, frustrations I let overwhelm me, that I do not want him to understand and emulate.
Thinking: That this is how children make us better.
Feeling: Like I’m finally ready for fall, and all its beautiful changes.
- "Art rediscovers, generation by generation, what is necessary to humanness. " -John Gardner
Lately, on InstagramIn the home stretch of our last day of summer vacation before I go back to (part-time 🙌💃) work next week. Because Henry (and I- Etta is a love nugget who chills wherever) are both crazies who need more freedom than our little space allows, we have made it out every single scorching day to explore this city. It’s been hard and good and here’s what I’ve learned to survive hours out with two tiny people, primarily on foot: 1. Do not fear the heat and humidity. They are your allies, as they are akin to the womb and will knock your baby out so hard for the longest and best of stroller naps, before doing the same to your toddler when you arrive home. 2. You can’t control toddler emotions. You can purchase iced beverages and pretend like you have it together. 3. Bring enough snacks to constitute lunch. Start doling then our around 10am, progressive tapas style. This helps moods stay positive, and means your toddler does not need lunch upon getting home and can be hurled into Nap Land STAT. 4. Embrace any and all water. Splash pad, pool, puddle, neglected garden hose- ALL ARE GIFT. 5. Throw a big bag in the stroller. You start the day with a tidy diaper bag that contains multitudes, but when everyone is melting down and you have to break down the stroller, stow it in the car, get the baby in the carrier, store the scooter, climb the many steps, and get all the thousand things you tossed in the bottom of the stroller in- this is no time for order. 6. Just get the aerosol sunscreen. And the packaged veggie pouches. And the cheese sticks. Decide that you have nothing to prove and don’t waste time trying. 7. Leave early. Leave now. Don’t think- just GET OUT. 8. Remind yourself that the hard and the hauling and the sweating and the intense toddler negotiations all over this city are preferable to the same ordeals...condensed in a small apartment. And the hard parts fade in memory and only the good remains. #iamthiskindofmomIf you have a Henry, I hope you get an Etta. A baby to show you how much easier and quieter and calmer it can be. A baby willing to fill all the spare places and moments with sweetness and steady grace. And if you have an Etta, I pray you get a Henry. Not just to humble you, but to push you further than you ever thought you could go every single day. Love this duo.